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I know of people who have
vowed to themselves to
never treat their kids the way
they were treated.
I know of some who swear they will
never neglect their sons
or daughters
the way
they were neglected.
I keep seeing all of these
to hold broken-hearted teenage girls in their arms,
and likewise, the sons,
and promises to lovingly accept gay sons, or boys who are not
actually boys, just born that way,
and likewise, the daughters.
I hear all the time of others who,
rest-assured, will never lay a hand
or spit vicious words
onto their kids.
They will never shake their babies,
they are not
I used to make all of these promises.
But one year, a few years ago,
I reached the lowest point I’ve ever
and decided that
this was a life that I could never
allow my child to have,
these are things I could never
watch him or her
go through.
I decided that
it may be better to just
not be a parent at all,
in fear of becoming what
I used to vow I wouldn’t when
I start to see myself
in my child and
not know
what to do.
Kayla Kathawa (via ninakathawa)
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